I am sorry, I can not figure out how to comment on my own blog. BLAHHHH. So I wanted to reply to your comment, but I tried and tried and I can not figure out how to stay signed in so this is the only way I could leave you a comment, I even tried making a new account. I am obviously not very good at this, haha.
Here was my comment to you.....
I hope and pray that you have a smooth surgery tomorrow! I am doing really well, thank you! Some advice, you will awake in pain, but my nurses took real good care of me with pain meds. You will be real sleepy and want to sleep all day! When you do get home I recommend that you sleep almost sitting up. I put 2 pillows under my back and head so that the gas could not travel under my shoulders. I had no shoulder pain. Its nice to have someone there with you the day after. My mom was with me but I was up and walking and felt pretty good. Drink your fluids and stay hydrated. You will be very bloated for about a week and half. Have a bunch of streachy, comfy pants to wear for a few days or the whole week. ;)
Unfortunately I was diagnosed with Severe, Stage 4 endometerosis. I am a bit overwhelmed with this diagnosis but relieved to have answeres and it feels great to know that I am now "cleaned out". My right ovary was covered in adhesions and was stuck to my tube and bowel. My Lt. ovary was pretty bad too. My Re did get rid of most of the endo. I am now feeling good but got a very painful AF 3 days ago. I started stimming tonight for my first IUI since the surgery (really IUI #5). My RE is really optimistic and so am I! :o)
Please let me know how your surgery goes and I am here for you if you have any questions! You are in my thoughts and prayers. I know you'll do Great!!! I pray you find some simple answers. Good Luck Tomorrow!
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Laparoscopy, Hysterscopy and D&C Surgery on May 4, 2011
After losing our second Angel on April 15, 2011 my RE decided that I should have some surgeries because he suspected that I had endometeosis. I have NO symptoms of endo except for a heavy and sometimes painful periods. At first I was not sure if I wanted the surgeries, I mean we have gotten pregnant twice with IUI, maybe it wasn't needed. Surgery is scary, but after losing our second baby with in a 3 month span I knew that we had to do something. I trust my RE and I have faith in him and decided that we needed answers. Why am I miscarring when I concieve? Maybe these surgeries will provide answers. Honestly I expected my doctor to come back with next to nothing after surgery....WHOA, was I Wrong!
I awoke in the hospital completely out of it, but completely aware of the pain I was feeling. I had the surgeries all at the same time. The Hysterscopy is done vaginally. A camera goes thru my cervix which is dialated and looks ay my uterus. They also look to see that both ends of my fallopian tubes are normal and open. I think everything was normal with this procedure. The D&C is also similar. My doctor scraped or sucuctioned a part of my uterus and the sample is then sent for testing. I will know the results in 2 weeks. The Laparscopy is the most interesting to me. They inserted a camera thru my belly button and also made 3 small incisions in my lower abdomen for the surgical instuments that were used, this was the laparascopy. My doctor then looks at my ovaries, outer uterus and fallopian tubes. He looked for any endo or cysts and then removes anything that is harmful or that can be causing our infertiltiy.
When I finally made it to post op and got to see my wonderful husband David I felt much better. In David's hand was 9 sheets of picture paper, 8 pictures on each sheet. My doctor had met with David while I was in recovery and explained what he had found and what was done to my reproductive organs. Let me just say, WOW! These images just amazed me! It turns out that I do have endometeosis and I had alot of it. My ovaries were completely covered with endo. My ovaries also had adhesions all over them, they were stuck to other organs in my body. The adhesions are what amazes me the most. My wonderful doctor "freed" my ovaries by cutting away all the scar tissue (adhesions) and removed a few cysts. It just amazes me that we were even able to concieve our 2 precious children. I now have answers as to why I may have lost them. I also had dye inserted into my fallopian tubes to see if they are open and blockage free. Thank God, Yes, my tubes are open and clear! It is hard to explain in words what the pictures show. I am not computer savy, but I will find a way to post these pictures. I am so happy that I had these surgeries and that I have such a wonderful, skilled doctor! We may even be able to concieve our children naturally now! I am so thankful and grateful.
I do not have my official diagnosis yet. I will have an appt. with my RE in about 2 weeks to go over all of his findings and figure out our next step. He will explain all of the pictures to me and we will finally have a daignosis for our Infertiltiy, I am no longer "unexplained". It feels wonderful to finally have some answers.
So I will update when I have my post op appointment.
I feel as if my reproductive organs have had a tune up and oil change. :o) I feel like we have a brand new start in trying to concieve. I am all "cleaned out" and ready to build our family!
Please continue to pray for us. I pray to God, Jesus, Mary, St. Jude and St. Gianna always. I have complete faith! I Believe! We will beat Infertiltiy!!!
God is Great!!! <3 <3 <3 <3
I awoke in the hospital completely out of it, but completely aware of the pain I was feeling. I had the surgeries all at the same time. The Hysterscopy is done vaginally. A camera goes thru my cervix which is dialated and looks ay my uterus. They also look to see that both ends of my fallopian tubes are normal and open. I think everything was normal with this procedure. The D&C is also similar. My doctor scraped or sucuctioned a part of my uterus and the sample is then sent for testing. I will know the results in 2 weeks. The Laparscopy is the most interesting to me. They inserted a camera thru my belly button and also made 3 small incisions in my lower abdomen for the surgical instuments that were used, this was the laparascopy. My doctor then looks at my ovaries, outer uterus and fallopian tubes. He looked for any endo or cysts and then removes anything that is harmful or that can be causing our infertiltiy.
When I finally made it to post op and got to see my wonderful husband David I felt much better. In David's hand was 9 sheets of picture paper, 8 pictures on each sheet. My doctor had met with David while I was in recovery and explained what he had found and what was done to my reproductive organs. Let me just say, WOW! These images just amazed me! It turns out that I do have endometeosis and I had alot of it. My ovaries were completely covered with endo. My ovaries also had adhesions all over them, they were stuck to other organs in my body. The adhesions are what amazes me the most. My wonderful doctor "freed" my ovaries by cutting away all the scar tissue (adhesions) and removed a few cysts. It just amazes me that we were even able to concieve our 2 precious children. I now have answers as to why I may have lost them. I also had dye inserted into my fallopian tubes to see if they are open and blockage free. Thank God, Yes, my tubes are open and clear! It is hard to explain in words what the pictures show. I am not computer savy, but I will find a way to post these pictures. I am so happy that I had these surgeries and that I have such a wonderful, skilled doctor! We may even be able to concieve our children naturally now! I am so thankful and grateful.
I do not have my official diagnosis yet. I will have an appt. with my RE in about 2 weeks to go over all of his findings and figure out our next step. He will explain all of the pictures to me and we will finally have a daignosis for our Infertiltiy, I am no longer "unexplained". It feels wonderful to finally have some answers.
So I will update when I have my post op appointment.
I feel as if my reproductive organs have had a tune up and oil change. :o) I feel like we have a brand new start in trying to concieve. I am all "cleaned out" and ready to build our family!
Please continue to pray for us. I pray to God, Jesus, Mary, St. Jude and St. Gianna always. I have complete faith! I Believe! We will beat Infertiltiy!!!
God is Great!!! <3 <3 <3 <3
Saturday, April 16, 2011
We Lost Our Baby :( We now have 2 children in Heaven.
I got the horrible news on April 15, 2011 that my Beta had dropped. A miscarriage is on the way. :( I am beyond words. My body feels as if my heart and soul are slowly and painfully being ripped from my body. When I wake up the next morning I feel EMPTY. I feel as something Huge has been lost and that it will never be found or put back. The empiness feeling is probably the hardest to deal with. What once was a growing healthy new life in my womb is now dying and leaving my body. This is so painful. I am trying to stay strong but it is hard. This is our second child we have lost in 4 short months. It doesnt seem fair, but my faith tells me that there is a reason that my baby had to go with God. My faith is still strong! I will not give up this fight! God is good! I believe 100% that we WILL have a healthy child soon. Infertility will NOT win! We WILL win!!! This is a promise to myself and just something that I have faith in.
I am only one out of 8 million Amercians who is suffering with this disease. I believe more awareness needs to be brought forth. The government does not seem to take this disease as serious as it should be taken. Only 14 states in the USA have mandatory insurance coverage for IF. The rest of us have to pay Everything out of pocket. I feel Infertility is compared to cosmetic surgery and that infuriates me! The places that we infertiles have to go to for loans are the same company's that give loans for boobs jobs, I mean WTF!?!? Most woman are born with completely healthy reproductive organs and having children is just the normal thing, it's the way God made woman. Well Infertility means that we have some underlying problem or disease that is keeping us from being able to reproduce. Why isnt it seen this way??? Something needs to change. Infertiltiy is a very real disease. It causes horrible depression and aniexty. It causes plenty of physical pain. We need a change and we need it soon! Please help this cause in anyway that you can. Do some research and find ways to help. Chances are that someone close to you is suffering but they are suffering in silence due to embarassement. As a woman it is embarassing not to be able to do what most other women can due without any second thoughts about it.
I have lost the only children that I have to Infertility and I will Never give up this fight!
I am only one out of 8 million Amercians who is suffering with this disease. I believe more awareness needs to be brought forth. The government does not seem to take this disease as serious as it should be taken. Only 14 states in the USA have mandatory insurance coverage for IF. The rest of us have to pay Everything out of pocket. I feel Infertility is compared to cosmetic surgery and that infuriates me! The places that we infertiles have to go to for loans are the same company's that give loans for boobs jobs, I mean WTF!?!? Most woman are born with completely healthy reproductive organs and having children is just the normal thing, it's the way God made woman. Well Infertility means that we have some underlying problem or disease that is keeping us from being able to reproduce. Why isnt it seen this way??? Something needs to change. Infertiltiy is a very real disease. It causes horrible depression and aniexty. It causes plenty of physical pain. We need a change and we need it soon! Please help this cause in anyway that you can. Do some research and find ways to help. Chances are that someone close to you is suffering but they are suffering in silence due to embarassement. As a woman it is embarassing not to be able to do what most other women can due without any second thoughts about it.
I have lost the only children that I have to Infertility and I will Never give up this fight!
Monday, April 11, 2011
18 days post IUI #4 ~ God is Great!!!
I had my thrid Beta test today and am so happy! I am relieved and full of joy and praise! My faith is so strong and 100% believe that we have a completely healthy and strong baby growing inside my womb. I have been praying to God, Jesus and Saint Gianna everyday, a few times a day. I am so grateful for our miracle!
Beta's are suppose to double every 48hrs to 72hrs, but 48hrs is the normal range. Here are my results so far!
13dpiui- Beta 25 ... Progesterone 10
14dpiui- Beta 37 ... Progesterone 17 (this one was taken 24hrs from the first one)
18dpiui- Beta 150 ... Progesterone 20.1
I go in Wed. for another Beta whitch is done through blood work. We are looking for it to be somewhere around 300.
Then in about 2 weeks we will have our very first ultrasound. We will get to see our Sweet Pea and hopefully be able to hear a nice, strong heartbeat!
Tomorrow, April 12th, is my birthday and this is the most Amazing birthday I have ever had. I am so blessed and I am so thankful and grateful for the new life that we created and all the amazing people in my life!
Dear God, Jesus and St. Gianna,
I praise and worship you! I am so thankful and grateful for the strong and healthy new life that is growing perfectly in my womb. I feel You all with me and it is so amazing. Please watch over our miracle baby always. Please let my Beta's keep rising and doubling every 48 hrs. Please let our baby have a strong heartbeat. Please let our baby be completely healthy in everyway. I have complete faith in all of You. I always need You, but right now I really need You all more than I ever have before. I believe 100% that you will protect the new life growing in my womb and give us a healthy 9 months of pregnancy and finally the delivery of our healthy child! Thank you so much for this Wonderful gift, this Amazing miracle! I am so grateful! Please hear and answer these prayers God, Jesus and St. Gianna. I have complete faith in all of You and I love You all with all that I am.
Amen!
God is Great!!! <3 <3 <3 <3
Beta's are suppose to double every 48hrs to 72hrs, but 48hrs is the normal range. Here are my results so far!
13dpiui- Beta 25 ... Progesterone 10
14dpiui- Beta 37 ... Progesterone 17 (this one was taken 24hrs from the first one)
18dpiui- Beta 150 ... Progesterone 20.1
I go in Wed. for another Beta whitch is done through blood work. We are looking for it to be somewhere around 300.
Then in about 2 weeks we will have our very first ultrasound. We will get to see our Sweet Pea and hopefully be able to hear a nice, strong heartbeat!
Tomorrow, April 12th, is my birthday and this is the most Amazing birthday I have ever had. I am so blessed and I am so thankful and grateful for the new life that we created and all the amazing people in my life!
Dear God, Jesus and St. Gianna,
I praise and worship you! I am so thankful and grateful for the strong and healthy new life that is growing perfectly in my womb. I feel You all with me and it is so amazing. Please watch over our miracle baby always. Please let my Beta's keep rising and doubling every 48 hrs. Please let our baby have a strong heartbeat. Please let our baby be completely healthy in everyway. I have complete faith in all of You. I always need You, but right now I really need You all more than I ever have before. I believe 100% that you will protect the new life growing in my womb and give us a healthy 9 months of pregnancy and finally the delivery of our healthy child! Thank you so much for this Wonderful gift, this Amazing miracle! I am so grateful! Please hear and answer these prayers God, Jesus and St. Gianna. I have complete faith in all of You and I love You all with all that I am.
Amen!
God is Great!!! <3 <3 <3 <3
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
IUI #4 = Big Fat Positive!!! God is Good! :0)
Well today was my first BETA 4/6/2011. I am either 12dpo or 13dpo. It is hard to pinpoint the exact date. I had gotten the call in the early afternoon. The first thing I hear is "Congratulations you are Pregnant"!
Praise God was my first thought. This may finally be THE ONE, our miracle baby.
My first Beta was 25.
I was hoping and praying for a higher number, but I am filled with Joy! My progesterone was 10. So things are looking pretty good right now. I go back tomorrow morning 4/7/2011 for another Beta to check and see if it is rising. I am scared because just 3 short months ago we lost our precious baby. I do not know if I can handle another loss. I have faith in God and I believe that my Beta will show a nice rise tomorrow. That is the most important thing in early pregnancy, my Beta HAS to rise or else I will miscarry and loose another one of my precious children. I have been praying to Saint Gianna and I feel that she is with me.
I need my lil Sweet Pea to continue growing, to be healthy and strong, and have my Beta numbers rise consistantly. This is a very stressful process. Tomorrow could be The Best day of my life! My birthday is on April 12th. This is the most amazing birthday present Ever! I am so very blessed! Thank you God, Jesus and Saint Gianna for giving us our miracle that we have been waiting for. I have complete faith in You all and I believe with all my heart and soul that You will protect our little one from any harm so that we will have a healthy 9 months of pregnancy and deliver a healthy child.
God is Great!!! <3 <3 <3 <3
Praise God was my first thought. This may finally be THE ONE, our miracle baby.
My first Beta was 25.
I was hoping and praying for a higher number, but I am filled with Joy! My progesterone was 10. So things are looking pretty good right now. I go back tomorrow morning 4/7/2011 for another Beta to check and see if it is rising. I am scared because just 3 short months ago we lost our precious baby. I do not know if I can handle another loss. I have faith in God and I believe that my Beta will show a nice rise tomorrow. That is the most important thing in early pregnancy, my Beta HAS to rise or else I will miscarry and loose another one of my precious children. I have been praying to Saint Gianna and I feel that she is with me.
I need my lil Sweet Pea to continue growing, to be healthy and strong, and have my Beta numbers rise consistantly. This is a very stressful process. Tomorrow could be The Best day of my life! My birthday is on April 12th. This is the most amazing birthday present Ever! I am so very blessed! Thank you God, Jesus and Saint Gianna for giving us our miracle that we have been waiting for. I have complete faith in You all and I believe with all my heart and soul that You will protect our little one from any harm so that we will have a healthy 9 months of pregnancy and deliver a healthy child.
God is Great!!! <3 <3 <3 <3
Monday, March 28, 2011
2 Week Wait for Final IUI (#4)
I am now 4dpIUI. The hardest part of fertility treatments is the 2ww. Your mind goes back and fourth, I am pregnant to No, it didnt work. It is so exhausting! The 2 weeks seem to go by so slow. I analyze every single symptom that I have. I am so anxious with this IUI because it is our final try. I am really afraid to hear your Beta was negative. If we are unsuccessful this means I have to have surgery and then move onto IVF.
IVF costs about 12,000.00 a try and you only have a 30% to 40% chance of it working. It makes me so mad that insurance does not cover any of this! Infertiltiy is a very debilitating disease, it should be treated as one! My mind never stops... How will we afford IVF? If we ask for donations for our cause will people even help us? What if it does not work and we may have to live childless for the rest of our lives? These thoughts haunt me every single day! I can not even imagine living the rest of my life without being a Mommy. Tears come to my eyes instantly at the thought. God, this is so hard!
I am trying to be completely positive this cycle. This is the Best cycle I have ever had! I am so excited yet so afraid. I bought special visulazation meditation CD's to listen to every day. For the first time in over 2 years I am allowing myself to be hopeful. In my mind I AM pregnant! I WILL have a positive pregnancy test! We are recieving our Miracle! So right now I have one or two Sweet Pea's (embryo's) growing in my tubes. They are growing hunderds and thousands of cells. They are dividing and becoming strong. My Sweet Pea will implant into my uterus! We are pregnant! This is my everyday thought process. I will find out the results 4 days before my 29th birthday. Oh what an amazing birthday present this will be! April 8, 2011 will be the best day of our lives!
I have complete Faith and I Believe!
IVF costs about 12,000.00 a try and you only have a 30% to 40% chance of it working. It makes me so mad that insurance does not cover any of this! Infertiltiy is a very debilitating disease, it should be treated as one! My mind never stops... How will we afford IVF? If we ask for donations for our cause will people even help us? What if it does not work and we may have to live childless for the rest of our lives? These thoughts haunt me every single day! I can not even imagine living the rest of my life without being a Mommy. Tears come to my eyes instantly at the thought. God, this is so hard!
I am trying to be completely positive this cycle. This is the Best cycle I have ever had! I am so excited yet so afraid. I bought special visulazation meditation CD's to listen to every day. For the first time in over 2 years I am allowing myself to be hopeful. In my mind I AM pregnant! I WILL have a positive pregnancy test! We are recieving our Miracle! So right now I have one or two Sweet Pea's (embryo's) growing in my tubes. They are growing hunderds and thousands of cells. They are dividing and becoming strong. My Sweet Pea will implant into my uterus! We are pregnant! This is my everyday thought process. I will find out the results 4 days before my 29th birthday. Oh what an amazing birthday present this will be! April 8, 2011 will be the best day of our lives!
I have complete Faith and I Believe!
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Final IUI tomorrow at 9:30 am. Very Excited!
Well this is it, Our final IUI! It is on 3/24/2011. I am so excited, yet also scared. I am feeling healthy and positive. My protocol was 300ui Follistim in the am and 300ui of Bravelle in the pm. I stimmed for 9 days. My last u/s and b/w was on 2/22/2011. U/S and B/W results.....
Lt. Ovary- 19.5mm, 18.5mm, 16mm
Rt Ovary- 16.5mm, 16.5mm, 15.5mm
Lining- 11.6mm perefct triphastic pattern
Estridol- 1,117
This was all done 15 hrs. before trigger so I am asumming I have had more growth in my follicles and Estridol levels. It looks like I have 5 or 6 mature healthy follicles! My thinking is that out of 5 follicles one of them will release the most perfect, high quality egg! That egg will fertalize and implant, maybe even two! I am very excited and I think my odds of success are very high for this cycle. My Beta is scheduled for
April 8, 2011. This is 4 days before my 29th birthday! I am praying that this will be the BEST birthday gift ever! My faith is strong and I believe it is our time!
We can use all the positive thoughts and prayers possible :)
I will keep you all updated and hopefully I will be jumping for joy with a BFP!!!
<3 <3 <3
Lt. Ovary- 19.5mm, 18.5mm, 16mm
Rt Ovary- 16.5mm, 16.5mm, 15.5mm
Lining- 11.6mm perefct triphastic pattern
Estridol- 1,117
This was all done 15 hrs. before trigger so I am asumming I have had more growth in my follicles and Estridol levels. It looks like I have 5 or 6 mature healthy follicles! My thinking is that out of 5 follicles one of them will release the most perfect, high quality egg! That egg will fertalize and implant, maybe even two! I am very excited and I think my odds of success are very high for this cycle. My Beta is scheduled for
April 8, 2011. This is 4 days before my 29th birthday! I am praying that this will be the BEST birthday gift ever! My faith is strong and I believe it is our time!
We can use all the positive thoughts and prayers possible :)
I will keep you all updated and hopefully I will be jumping for joy with a BFP!!!
<3 <3 <3
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