I somehow forgot about my blog after the birth of our miracle son, David.
D is now almost 29 months old! We decided to continue with TTCA when David turned 2. We had a surprise pregnancy in June 2013. It unfortunately ended in an early miscarriage.
Let me start with being a parent after our infertility struggles .....
Being a mommy to D is even better then I ever imagined. He feels our lives with so much love and happiness. D is a huge talker and is such a loving, affectionate toddler. I could not complain if I even tried!
So recently D has been asking for "a baby sister" and I swear that Big D nor myself put the thought in his head. ;)
Life has just been so good that we honestly were not ready to start thinking about having baby #2. The surprise BFP and then loss in 6/2013 was very emotional and I just was not sure if I could handle losing another baby. We decided to put our fears aside and starting trying. No more BCP'S! We got our next BFP fairly easy, but I just knew it wasn't going to last. We then had our 5th miscarriage. It was a chemical pregnancy. Knowing I have 5 angels in heaven makes the thought of going to heaven someday exciting, but how I wish and long for my babies to be here with us. I grieved each one knowing I will see them again someday in heaven. That helped me get threw.
So David wants a sibling and we want another child. The thought of TTCA is so scary. We no longer seem to have trouble getting pregnant, I seem to be unable to keep them long. I feel my body has failed me. There are lots of emotions to work threw and new feelings pop up all the time.
Next post will have some new and hopeful news!
